1. |
A Million Times
02:02
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Doing it alone
made it something I didn’t want it to be
and now I'm stuck in a habit of misery
when I think of what I should have done differently
to the people around me
I know I’ve said a million times
that I’m fine
but I lied
constantly
to the people around me
a million times
"I wish you'd all just admit,
that you'd be better off
if I didn't exist"
it seemed like a rational thought
even between the lines
I’m the only one
counting the times
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2. |
Half-Smile
01:16
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It’s funnier to think about now
than it was back then
the way you half-smiled
when you said you didn’t
want to see me again
I’ve been trying to get
that half-smile
off my mind
this whole time
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3. |
Twelve Screens
01:24
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I couldn't pay attention
to any one thing
as my eyes glazed
over all twelve screens
As I jogged between
fast food and acne cream
it seemed obvious to me
it was just twelve different people
all telling me
I don’t look good enough
I’m not smart enough
I don’t own enough
I don’t fuck enough
every single one
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4. |
Over and Over Again
01:39
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There's no TV show on enough
There's no drugs that work long enough
There’s no number of times I can clean my place enough
Or even work days to go by slow enough
To distract me from where I'm at
or distract me from where I'm not
Time isn't moving any differently
but it still feels like I’m living the same day
over and over again
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5. |
Those Eyes
01:46
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What I'd give
to have your eyes
staring back at me
Its unfair
but whats ever fair
how would you even know
if I can only stare
I won’t even bother
I’ve got nothing to offer
I’ll just sit and wonder
What it’d take
to make my mouth
say a word to you
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In the mirror
In the bathroom
In the back of your house
I looked myself right in the eyes
and it finally seemed to occur to me
Why things always end up the same
and why I always react the same
so I said it aloud but with no one around
all there is to blame
is your awful fucking temper
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7. |
Laundry Detergent
01:27
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While I was I walking home
I caught a familiar scent
It took a couple blocks to remember
but it was someone using
your same detergent
You always used that same kind
but it hasn’t been around in a long time
I never even asked to make that
connection in my mind
Next time I’m walking home
I’ll wonder where it went
because I’ll always remember
the smell of that laundry detergent
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8. |
I Avoided It
01:29
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I didn’t want to see your face
because I knew I wouldn’t enjoy it
the best part about this place
Is that I can easily avoid it
so I avoided it
Yeah I saw your call
but I guess I ignored it
just the thought of it all
made it easier to avoid it
so I avoided it
I’m more surprised by the fact
you thought i wouldn’t act like that
Like I wouldn’t do what
I've always been so good at
so I avoided it
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9. |
I Picked a Side
01:57
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I never tried
things seemed alright
I’d rather feel slighted
than put up fights
There were lot a lot of things
I know I said I’d do
I picked a side
so at least I tried
I decided
how to make things right
There were a million things
I know I said I’d do
but just saying that
never made them true
I could just sit here for the rest of my life
maybe then I’d feel some peace of mind
but I’d rather put something on the line
So I picked a side
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10. |
One of Them
02:06
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I always felt like
I was one of them
I was treated
like one of them
just a person in the background
I’ve gotten used to being one of them
just a person in the background
apart from everything in front of me
in the background
I’ll never have to face things that I can’t see
in the background
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